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This is so damn relatable, Johnathan! I remember breaking down in tears in a postpartum haze because the app I used to track my breastfeeding didn't log my overnight sessions. And there was some kind of reward for continuously tracking how many minutes I fed my daughter.... and maybe a piechart? I remember holding her sleepy, warm body while wiping tears off my face and then spontaneously bursting into uncontrollable laughter. Human-ing is so weird. 😂

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Humaning is, indeed, so so weird!

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I enjoyed this so much and relate on a deep level. The humor in this inner dialogue battle is just so good and real and human. Plus 498 is, of course, an amazing streak, so funny how our brains play this game.

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Right, it's so funny how we focus on what we're about to lose, instead of celebrating what we've accomplished.

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This is so good and relatable. I've also worried about disappointing my apps, striving for a perfection that no one but me (and the tech platform) would ever see. There's something about those stars though...

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Love this. 😁. I flipping hate apps.

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I love that you wrote about this. I’ve experienced something similar with a daily writing streak of 750words.com. Thank you for helping me process it!

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Ha, I think that may be one of the reasons I never started digitally-trackable morning pages!

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Duo is just a game, a spoke in the language learning wheel of classes and reading. Your self appraisal is closer to my promise to never fly whilst in Europe. I could do it until climate change bought the side of a mountain down on the trainline between Paris and Milan. The agony I went through was similar to your meditation dilemma. I flew then and I’m flying in a couple of weeks and I’ve got another one booked in a month. I’ll be buying carbon credits of course but it is sobering. I couldn’t keep my promise. C’est la vie. (I’m learning French now!)

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Superb.

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Thanks, Diana!

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I once had 900 days on Duolingo (Italian). It disapeared. I wished you to hit the backfill button but I learned the lesson with you. Although disappointed, I found myself nodding. To meditate is lose the ego. Your bravery inspired me to dissolve some of mine!

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Ha, I know, I keep thinking about starting up on Duolingo, but then I wonder about adding another potential channel for my silliness!

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